AgentOrangesicle

There are some cases where there’s a balanced zen to it. Take the Dark Souls series. It’s rewarding not because you accomplished a task, but because you overcame a seemingly impossible obstacle, which can feel very rewarding. I’m on a level 1 run of Elden Ring, and it’s profoundly punishing, but I’m halfway through the expansion, and seeing my progress fills me with joy.

Really, though?

Flagrant acts of racism.

Portland pretends to be better than that, but I keep having casual reminders that we’re really white-coded. A black guy walks into the liquor store at 10:00 am and both the women behind the counter have a collective sense of panic when I’m walking up to check out. There was nothing off about him. They just had some immediate sense that he intended harm. The one checking me out said, under her breath, “oh, I thought we were getting robbed”.

It was obvious the dude noticed their reaction, and it made me feel fucking horrible.

Why do you ask so many leading questions?

I don’t know how I feel about the, “no wipe” part…