TL;DR: Gained too much weight after I fell and broke my arm + couldn’t really move for a while. I have a lot of trauma related to sports, like I was forced to play football like any other Hungarian kid, and I was awful at it, which made others be angry at me for it, which made me reluctant to do it. Even if I manage to do it, I often get brutal, crippling muscle pain, which makes me fo it even less.
Since I"m Hungarian, I cannot rely on health care at all, especially mental health, as it was the very first thing that got cut, amd I cannot afford private care.
Oh man, I wish you were located close to me. It seems nobody can relate to exercise itself being the issue but also being necessary. I’m pretty sure we could walk around and bit about that constantly.
Movement for me has always been the issue. And I don’t mean regular sore muscles. As you said, crippling pain.
I even got into some sports to remedy this specifically and it got even far worse. I’ve got some neurological disorders that might or might not be related.
I just wish I felt the happiness from sports that seemingly should happen.